brokenness and healing are cyclical. one always leads to the other. both lead towards a life of redemption. (andy cherry)
i am the Lord your God,who brought you up out of the land of egypt. open your mouth wide, and I will fill it. (psalm 81:10)
“child, i am telling you your story, not hers. i tell no one any story but his own.” (aslan)
God, the one and only— i’ll wait as long as he says. everything i need comes from him, so why not? he’s solid rock under my feet, breathing room for my soul … (psalm 62:1-2)
wrestling with God is its own form of closeness. it takes hanging on to really wrestle. and it’s hard to do without being face to face. (beth moore)
remember this, if any other position would be better for you, than the one in which you are, divine love would have put you there. (c.h. spurgeon)
when you redeem the hard events of your past by asking how they’ve benefited you, you take away their sting. (donald miller)
these are just a handful of examples of the things stirring in me lately. i am a collector of quotes, and more often than not, anything profound that comes out of my mouth was birthed in someone else’s words. (hey, at least i admit it!) i think i have my voice back, and i’m learning to use my words again- but there are still times when someone else says it better than i could. i’m learning to be thankful for the wrestling season that has been going on for the last two years, and is still going on; and i’m learning that wrestling is not weakness! like beth moore said in her quote above, wrestling takes holding on. “i will not let you go until you bless me!” i’ve come back to that story of jacob wrestling with the angel so many times in the last few months. that encounter left jacob with a limp for the rest of his life. it changed his name and his whole trajectory. (here is a great blog about it, and here is the passage from genesis 32:22-31)
so basically, God’s good. He’s writing (and has already written) my story, and is telling it to me, little by little. He is solid rock under me, big enough for my questions and doubts. He does everything with purpose, and doesn’t waste a thing. He knows where i am, because he put me here. He is good IN and BECAUSE OF pain, not in spite of it. He is the source of joy, and is even now poised to pour it out on me- if i would open my mouth to receive it.
if you see me walking around with my mouth hanging open, now you know why.